I'm sorry I haven't been posting lately, but most of the things I have wanted to write fell into the "things too crazy to post" category.
It's hard to sit down and write something, when everything seems so bleak. I desperately need some kind of a win in my life.
This month not only did I have the "we don't want someone like you teaching our children thing," but also the "not only can't I get a job in my chosen profession, I can't even get one stocking shelves at Target thing."
I also hate that I've gotten to the point that I can't even take pleasure in my friend's successes. I hear that they have started new relationships, found a great job, or are getting ordained and the first thing I feel is a sinking feeling that none of those things are ever going to happen for me. I want to be happy for them and I hate that happiness is not the first thing I feel.
This should probably have also gone into the "things too crazy to post" folder, but it's also good to say it to someone.
