I met with the CPM today, and I guess it will be the last time I do that, at least with this CPM. They voted to recommend to the presbytery that my name be struck from the roll of inquirers and that our covenant relationship be ended.
The committee feels that while I probably am called to ordained ministry and while there is no specific reason that I shouldn't be an ordained Minister of Word and Sacrament, there is no chance that I will get there in this presbytery.
It's still to soon after the meeting for me to know how I feel, I haven't really processed it yet, and I'm worn out from the drive and the meeting.
More later.
i'm so sorry, meghan.
Posted by: katie | October 03, 2006 at 12:43 PM
I am sad to hear the news! Know that I'm thinking of you and praying for you and for your ministry to this world! You are such a wonderful person with amazing gifts for ministry- please always remember that and there are people here who love and care about you!
Posted by: Erin | October 04, 2006 at 07:12 PM
Hey friend,
I would have posted a comment sooner but I was so angry after reading your post that I wanted to give myself some time to cool off before I wrote something that was simply a sign of my emotion and not how I really feel. I ditto everything that Erin said. I'm sad to hear about the committee's decision. They may say that they believe that you have clear gifts for ministry but their actions do not seem to back up their words. Know that you are in my prayers!
Posted by: Claire | October 05, 2006 at 03:10 PM
Meghan,
This is hard for me to understand because, as I recall, the vote to move you to candidacy was very close. I'm not sure how they went from that to "no chance." So much for faith in the movement of the Spirit. Know that you will be in our thoughts and prayers during Imago Dei's week of chapel next week, and particularly on the day of silence. A question: has anyone ever made a stole for you for the Shower of Stoles Project? If not, I would like to be part of making that happen. I also really appreciated your comments about Annie Dillard's words in worship. I agree with you that they are not the same thing as a prayer to the Triune God. In fact, her words sound a lot like idolatry to me--we don't worship the days, we worship the God who created the day. Anyway, I'm sorry I didn't get a chance to talk with you more while you were here. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Posted by: Emily | October 05, 2006 at 03:49 PM